I swear, moving sucks the life out of you! haha. My parents and sibs moved this weekend and you’d think it would have been really easy considering they only moved one street over, but noooooo. They were supposed to get the keys around 3 pm on Saturday (and be out of their house that night), but the people moving out of their new house weren’t done “cleaning” until after 7:30. I say “cleaning” with quotes because I’m not exactly sure what they cleaned. It was so dirty when we finally got in there. So for 4 hours, we sat around waiting and waiting and waiting to get access to the house. Full U-haul, full van, full car, full crew of dad’s friends, neighbors, and our family ready to go. The house is really cute; they gained a computer room, a second living room, and a game room. Mom is really frustrated with the kitchen, she lost a lot of cabinet and counter space so trying to fit her old kitchen’s worth of stuff isn’t going so well. The kids bedrooms are a little smaller, but 1/2 of the stuff they had in their rooms is going in the game room or computer room so really, they will basically just sleep in their rooms.

My sister is loving it, she lives catty-corner to her besties now. I made them a folder on a string yesterday so they can pass their secret messages over the fence without them blowing away. The girls came over and helped her unpack and arrange her furniture, which was a huge help for mom. It gave mom time to do other things, like wrestle with the kitchen haha. My brother took a little convincing that this was going to be cool. The first day he was pretty upset with how small his room was, understandably. He’s 16 and feels like he should be getting more freedom, not less space. But by the end of day 2 he was really liking the house and I had helped him unpack some of his stuff, so he was able to see his space. And he gets that the game room will probably be his hangout.

It was so cool to see the kids all playing video games together in the game room! My brother, sister and her 2 best friends all piled on our big denim couch battling it out. This is exactly what my mom and dad were hoping for. In the other house there was no space for computers, so everyone ended up putting their computer in their own room and the family was spread out all over the house. Now they have a computer room right off the living room and it has double doors so they can all be together AND on their computers.

My mom and brother and I were up so late the first night laughing and goofing around, it was so good to see my mom laugh. After last week, I wasn’t sure how long it would be before she was laughing again. I love their new house, I can’t wait to have a big family dinner over there! However, while I was at my family’s house, my house was getting soooo messy!!! Gotta go clean!



July 20, 2010

So I’ve been going through pictures for the last hour or so and I can’t believe all that’s happened in the last few years. My brother’s hair has gone from brown to black, from above his ears to below his shoulders, and he’s gone from 5′ to almost 6’1″! My little sister has gone from her “little kid” stage to being a preteen. I’ve moved out, moved back in, and moved back out again. I just am amazed at how quickly it’s all happened. What a crazy ride!

I am so grateful for everything in my life, and I am learning not to dwell on what (or who) is no longer there. People come in and out of your life for a reason, and you may not always understand why, but it’s always for the best. I have been blessed to meet so many new people in the last year and a half… my boyfriend and his wonderful family, Kes, Kaitlin, Tanya… and I’ve been able to reconnect with some old friends who I haven’t seen/talked to in YEARS!

I am so excited to see what life has in store for me and my Guy… he makes me dream the biggest dreams!

Every time I think I have this place unpacked, or clean, or ready for company I get hit in the face with the overwhelming realization that I am nowhere near done with this place! And believe me, having a “project man” in the house does not help. With the “new” car coming home in a couple weeks we have discovered that we are going to have to empty the garage to make sure it will fit. This would be just fine if we had space in the condo (reminder: this is a 1 bedroom condo) for all the stuff in the garage. Plus, every time I go out to the garage to bring boxes in, I’m reminded that it is summer in Southern California and is therefore a billion and a half degrees outside.

Saturday when I went to my cousin’s grad party, my grandparents picked me up and were finally able to see our adorable place. Where did all the unpacked and uncategorized stuff end up? Hidden away in the garage :). But now I have to bring it all in and start really deciding what is necessary and what can be given up. We just don’t have the space for all of the excess. I know if you haven’t used it in 6 months, you don’t really need it. I’m also frustrated because I haven’t been able to have help from my love. It seems every weekend at least one day is completely full, and the other day he needs to just relax before going back to aĀ  busy work week. We need organization, downsizing, and order. All things that make a small space livable. If we had only the things currently in the condo, and none of what’s in the garage we’d probably be ok, somewhat. haha.

Ok… enough ranting, onto being productive about this! But first… Air conditioner, on!

Let’s see, it’s been HOW long since I blogged? Oh yeah, TOO long. I hate not blogging every day but I’ve been busy and away from my computer, or any computer for that matter. Saturday was my cousin’s graduation from University of Redlands. Such a beautiful campus. However, 3 hours in direct sun can lead to a very uncomfortable evening. I think I ended up with sun poisoning! No bueno, I do not love throwing up at all.

Sunday my bf and I spent the whole day meeting with people about places to live. It was a pretty interesting experience. If you’re going to rent out a room or a house, do the little things like vacuuming and making sure it doesn’t smell like urine! I can’t wrap my mind around the idea that showing a dirty space is ok! Especially if you’re going to ask someone for a significant amount of money to stay there! Do your dishes! Uck I was pretty disgusted. Except for the last house we went to. Love the people in the house, love the house, love the pup, love that we’d have 2 12×12 rooms AND a private bathroom so I would (in essence) have my own office! We have one more meeting this upcoming Monday after our VEGAS TRIP šŸ™‚ šŸ™‚ šŸ™‚ then we’ll know which place.

Monday morning my aunt and uncle stopped by on their way home from El Centro. It was so good seeing them. I miss being close to that side of the family. Can’t wait for my cousin’s baby shower. šŸ™‚ Then we went to Hemet to see my grandma and grandpa. Got to go swimming for the first time in a lonnnng time. Which of course had the down side of me being in a bathing suit… yuck!

Tonight it’s a girls’ night with @kesleighnoelle, @Kaitlincasey, and @somedayilllearn. Can’t wait! We’re going to @Ca_tea and then going to get our nails done šŸ™‚ Tomorrow it’s babysitting from 8-4 and then packing for #Vegas! Friday we leave as soon and bf gets out of work. Sooo excited!! What’s new with the rest of you?

I’ve really been trying to learn more about myself over the last few weeks as I haven’t really spent much time focusing on me at all in my life. I look back at my journals and old online diaries and it always says “it’s time to take some time for myself, time to focus on me” and then 1-2 days later I’m back to being worried about everyone else. Well, I think I’ve finally made me a priority. I’ve had basically the same 5 friends for the last 8-13 years (oh wow, I’m old enough to have friends for over 10 years? OMG lol) and since I’ve moved to So. Cal. I’ve noticed a big change in who takes the time to talk with me and who has let it go. And I’ve started talking to a few friends who I would have never thought be people I counted on. The saddest thing for me is that I only live half-a-day’s drive away and only 1 person has made the trip down to see me. I’ve lived here 3 years, I’ve driven up there 3-4 times to see them. And even then, some of those who claim to be family couldn’t have been bothered to see me… this tangent is completely not where I was going… and I’m now resisting the urge to ctrl+a delete lol.

Basically, it’s time for me to take care of me and my bf, our families, and my business.

It was so great meeting everyone Saturday night! @kesleighnoelle, @RachelsRants, @somedayilllearn, @Sugar Jones, @CA_suntan, @amybowen, @SITSGirls…. hopefully I’m not forgetting anyone… @somedayilllearn’s fiance and my bf had a great little male bonding time lol. The music was fun, the crowd was great, and I must have been having a good time because I broke a nail and didn’t even know it lol. I’m really excited to be getting out and doing things. This was actually the first social even I’ve been to in a long LONG time that wasn’t with my bf’s friends or people from his work. This was all my own. He’s such a trooper for going along šŸ™‚ Can’t wait for the next one šŸ™‚

Now bloggy bootcamp… in Austin?!?! This could definitely be happening for me!

Is it summer yet?

May 21, 2010

Why is it not feeling like summer yet? I am such a summer baby, it’s ridiculous, so the fact that it feels like fall is making me pretty sad.

So excited to go to my first #tweetup tomorrow! I’ve been down here in So. Cal. for 3 years (in August) and I have not had the time or the resources to make my own set of friends. My boyfriend and I have friends (his friends that have accepted me) but I haven’t made friends of my own. I’ve never been the type to have a lot of girlfriends, but lately I’ve been realizing that I may need a few. I know it’s a long way off, but I was thinking about my wedding the other day and I realized it would be totally pointless for me to even have a bridal shower because I have 1 girlfriend and the rest is family… not saying I wouldn’t love to have my family at my bridal shower, but I’d like to have friends too! My best friend lives in Nor. Cal. and would probably not be able to make it down for those kinds of events and I have one other good friend down here (who I just adore!). It’s time I get some girls together to go to lunch with, or get my nails done with. Especially since I work for myself, make my own schedule, and don’t have coworkers to get together with.

Believe it or not, I think twitter is helping me do that! I have met some really awesome people in the last 2 weeks and tomorrow night I’ll meet them in person! So excited!

Now… what to wear. My Guy has his vote in, and I’m pretty sure that’s what I’ll end up wearing. We’ll see šŸ™‚

Wow, Thursday snuck up on me pretty quick! You guys will probably notice that I make a lot of references to how quickly time is moving and how unable I am to keep up with it. It happens to me a lot.

I’ve got a lot on my mind right now; moving, growing up, family, money, business…. a little of everything I guess. I’m so excited about moving, I know it’s going to do amazing things for my relationship with my Guy (yes, that’s his name) and my relationship with my parents, especially my mom. I’ve always been very close with my parents and being back home has made a few things change in my relationship with them. Hopefully getting out and being on my own again will mend some of the things that have been damaged.

I feel like I’m growing up a 2nd time. I moved out when I was 19, lived with my then fiance for 11 months and then moved into a house with an older man who was recently divorced (strictly roommates). Well, I moved my stuff in and spent the night at the house twice. The house was being partially remodeled and so the living room was basically drywall and the carpet was cut off at the stairs. I just didn’t feel like it was my space or that I was able to come and go as I needed to because he worked at 6 am and if I came in too late I felt like I was going to wake him when his dogs heard me come in. So my stuff lived there from July to November and then it joined me at my mom and dad’s… what I didn’t sell or throw away. I guess to explain that I need to back up and tell you why I went from having a fiance, to living in a man’s house… After 11 months of living together, my fiance of 2 years (boyfriend of 8 years before that… I’ll do the math for you, I was 11 years old when we first started ‘dating’) decided that he wanted to go home to Tennessee to go back to school (oh yeah, did I mention that 6 years of our relationship was long distance?!?!) So, he left and I was determined not to move back home just yet. I felt I was really ready to be on my own. Well, I was…until I realized that IĀ  didn’t make enough money to take care of myself. I’ve been back at home since November of 2008… it’s time to grow up again.

My family has always meant the world to me. My parents have always been my closest friends… that doesn’t mean they were my best friends and I got away with everything… I just mean that I have always been able to tell them anything and they have always supported me in my decisions, even if they didn’t understand them. They’ve been the best parents anyone could ever ask for. My brother just turned 16 and I am so proud of the man he’s becoming. He is honest, he gets good grades, he treats his girlfriend with so much respect and he is incredibly loyal. My sister is 12 and she is also an amazing kid. She gets good grades, she tries to make things fair for everyone, she doesn’t partake in gossip, and she’s always doing some little project of her own. Like last night, he was on my laptop and when I looked at what she was doing she had been putting all these pics together in a collage in paint of things she wants in her new bedroom when I move out. Both are amazing kids. I am really just so proud of them.

Money and business kinda go together for me right now. I’m really excited about my business, and I think other people are getting excited about it too. I’ve heard from a few people that they’ve looked at the site not needing anything in particular and then deciding there was something they might just have to have! So that’s pretty cool. My computer genius boyfriend put an ad up on Craigslist for me last night and I need to create another one that’s not geared towards the band merch stuff. I’ve got some amazing friends that are helping me get my name out all over the place. If anyone has any ideas, please let me know I’m always up for a fresh idea. I’m only one person!

Life is good, you guys! I’m stressed and I have a lot on my mind but my life is really good. I have a few little things I’d like to improve upon, but in general I am loving my life!

I just want everyone to understand how important it is to love who you are…

Be bold, be you!


I simply cannot believe how fast the weekend went! I haven’t blogged since Thursday? Insanity! I felt really strange without blogging over the weekend especially since so many things happened… but I didn’t have time!!

Friday was my baby brother’s 16th birthday. We picked him up from school and took him to get his gf’s anniversary present at La Masters Jewelers in Temecula. I can’t believe I’ve never been in there before, they have some amazing things in there! I fell in love with this ring that has a raw uncut diamond in the center and has a ton of tiny cut diamond that criss-cross over the top of it. It would make such a unique engagement ring *hint-hint* lol.

We picked our apartment yesterday. I am so excited I can’t even stand it! It’s totally perfect for us, it even fits my love’s gigantic monster couch!! We got a 2 bed 2 bath for what we could have paid for a 1 bed. I think I even saw a studio for more. It’s great location, it’s literally 2-5 minutes from the freeway. Today we are turning in our apps, but we already put a hold on the apartment so it’s ours. July 1st is our move-in date! Such a huge relief knowing we have a place!!